Bubble and Chubble Talk _the_ Talk

Arjit: i want to be the boy in ur dreams

me: i dont drea of boys

Arjit: no boy ever appeared in ur dreams ??

impossible

me: sorry man but u just rammed into a truck load of bad luck

Arjit: thats wud be u => the truck load of bad luck

how was ur presentation

i didnt respond yesterday

me: presentation nvr happnd

he saw the product

Arjit: cuz i saw it later

me: and i dont giv a fcuk if he liked it or hated it

tho they said it was appreciated i dont believe it

Arjit: why not?

me: coz i wasnt there so basically ..!..

idc because idk

Arjit: i usually don't get ur short forms

this is one of those times

me: i dont care because i dont know

idc coz idk

Arjit: hmmm...thats strange..for something u worked so hard for and lost ur night's sleep !!

that's worth one min of VP's attention

me: yeah thats why i jus decided im not joining this firm

if u cant giv recognition u cant expect me to work

thats it

i mean i want to be the arjun who will eventually succeed

but there is no krishna who would vouch for that

Arjit: there is no krishna in ne other company either.. that'll just mean u won't join ne company

no guarantee of getting recognition newhere..

just gotta keep trying

and trusting ur luck

me: hmm atleast somme other guys will pay me more

Arjit: hehehe

now thats an argument

me: i m not willing to work for 6 lks

Arjit: thats valid

me: and do work that i dont even like

i'd better sit at home

u know i'd like to say this

i always pretend to be a normal guy, but in the end i nvr end up being the normal guy

hehehh and thats not blowing my own trumpet coz i aint proud of that

its just that it recurs time after time

Arjit: we're all wannabee normal ..no point trying..we're too far from it

i wish someone caught swine flu in symantec

we'll get a vacation

ppl r generally taking leaves in other companies

me: well i get a 9 da off

i dont like my work that much

i spend my time doing other stuff

heheheh

but it was a challenge and i fucked it

well see i'd giv the impression that im working hard

and im interested in the firm

Arjit: no u nailed it...wrong word

me: but thats not true

its the way u go about a challenge

Arjit: atleast tu mann maar kar kaam kar sakta hai

me: its all about the killer instinct man which we all have been lacking

u think that way ?

Arjit: ur work in PS is testimony for that

me: well its a challenge at ur personal level

i mean if somebody dies in ur family

u have to learn to live wihtout them

u cant bring'em back right

Arjit: ya...

me: so its like zeher peete chalo

hoping ull strike upon amrit some day

Arjit: so was it a necessity ?? or u took it as a challenge..wat was the driving force

me: driving force was the killer instinct spirit which i need to rekindle

Sent at 3:50 PM on Wednesday

me: i mean u gotta learn something out of it

and guess thats the best teaching i take out of the whole situation

Arjit: u rem...abt one yr bak we used to talk of the same things..and u said i'll never do something i don't like doing...thats the way i am

while i said somethings are necesaary..can't do without em

me: yesss :)

Arjit: things sure have changed

me: i so remember that

but then dont u think i took it in a better spirit now

i mean if i am free ill do waht i want

Arjit: yess..im glad

me: but then if i cant help it

why challenge the system if u know ull fail

it'll only bring more pain

why not take it as a challenge to come out

with the confidence that u can do anything

and add that in ur stride

when ur pursuing what u've always wanted

Arjit: that's wat is driving u...i got it...u know ur pursuing wat u've always wanted

god i so wish that was me saying

me: u jus gave me goosbumps

i mean we caan jus egg each other on so well

dont u think ur doing what u've always wanted

?

Arjit: not rite now...in the company

me: i mean now that u are doing cat preps

Arjit: ya thats all fine

me: where is the problem then ?

Arjit: i wish i cud get rid of this PS..which btw consumes 75% of my time and energy

me: am i not in the same position

and u my friend are no less in any form than i am

Arjit: but thats part of the process for u...for me it's like completely out of the way

Sent at 3:59 PM on Wednesday

me: it is not even that contrasting , i mean i havent ben telling u what i do these days

but i'd not like to now

also

Arjit: hmmm..thats rite

me: but believe me the picture isnt that rosy at all

i jus wanna see u fuck some shit real hard man

u have all it takes

just the patience is all u need

and i mean the day u start working on it

you'll only keep building it

its like the dirt, if u leave the room as it is and dont disturb it, itll keep accumulating on its own

:)

Arjit: hehe...thnx man..

means a lot to me

i solved my first mock cat today

nailed it !!

me: nice!

but at office

hehehe

Arjit: no...at office alrite..but in the morning..5-8

me: :O

Arjit: i often spend the nite at office

same for dalal

me: nite at office

?

whoa man

Arjit: ya..there r bunk beds here

me: yeah yeah even here but thats good man

:)

Arjit: lot of peace for studying...plus the house is a big mes

me: awesome infact

hehe

well u deserve an applause

clap

Arjit: loda clap...for sleeping in the office...wat a loser i am !!

the janitors luk at me in amazement :D

hahaha

me: no for taking out time for ur dreams

Arjit: hehe

ppl know i stay all the time...they just don't have the right to sy nething

it's weird

*say

me: heheh :D

u shudnt care about that, and i know that u dont

Arjit: exactly

me: chalo man its tym to do what i like to do :)

heheeh

will catchya later

Arjit: sure

me: this chat is my blogpost

Arjit: 1111

tata

me: ciao

ohh n btw its my time to eat

ha ha :D

Arjit: stuff all u want

Sent at 4:10 PM on Wednesday

Tête-à-Tête

In times like these, its hard to take some time out for yourself. You find yourself in a new city, miles away from college, just swarming with people you don't know, faces you don't recognize, expressions you can't understand, emotions you can't comprehend, talents you can't judge, smiles you can't respond to, security you can't breach, authority you can't challenge, tension that gives you sleepless hours in the bed, aspirations that fly high in the sky, appreciation lurking in the altars, fame that begs to be grabbed, names that ought to be taken and hopes you hope will come true.

Its hard to picture yourself against the alien surroundings, and it forces you to go back to your

shell, your comfort zone, back to the place where you belong, where you already have an identity, the same cube of which you have been a part for so long, where the huge walls don't scare you, and in fact where the walls shield you and keep you warm. The challenge of carving a new niche for yourself seems a daunting task, but its a challenge you just have to accept because first, life doesn't give you the time to look back in time, and secondly life only makes sense

when you look backwards, so at every moment moving forward is the only sensible choice.

Today I choose to write about myself. In a sense it gives me the impression that i am really

devoting myself the time i deserve and not the time that i need; trying to understand myself

by delving deeper into what I say and how I react to various situations and the way my

thought process works. It also gives me a chance to present myself to the world minus all the

sham and the embellishment. But then its only me who vouches for the fact that the information

here hasn't been garnished in a way that makes it more presentable and there is no one to verify

my claims here, but that it is the way I feel about myself and i wish that somehow you would

understand.

From being the guy who is totally into metal to being a guy who's favourite song happens to be

'Coming Back To Life'; from being the guy who screwed up acads in his college life to being the

guy who feels like repeating every damn course they taught in college just to show that he still

has the desire to learn; from being a guy who does almost anything to make people laugh and

goes on to crack jokes on himself to being the guy who weeps in his heart of hearts at times and

finds it almost impossible to get through what he actuallly feels like; from being the guy who

wants to help his friends get out of their shit to being the guy who actually ends up doing nothing

to alleviate their pain; from being the guy who almost does things without taking any self into

account most of the times to being a guy who ends up being called selfish most of the times; from being a guy who still likes to solves those math puzzles, collect those coins, still pursuing those chilhood hobbies to being the guy who still likes to look into the night sky, not observing anything but just gazing at those stars hoping to go into space some day; from being the guy who dreamt of becoming a really big shot astrophysict to being the guy who now just wants to spend an unobtrusive life; from being a guy who likes to talk less to being the guy who ends up saying more; from being a guy who thinks that every human being is equal to being the guy who regards

himself above all others when it comes to applying common sense; from being a guy who likes

to keep a low profile to being the guy who ends up getting all the undeserved attention; from

being the guy who just loves to speak his mind to being the guy who always ends up dishonouring lost of the people; from being the guy who does thing the best when he does it the first time to being the guy who gets bored of anyhting and everything; from being a guy who never shows that he cares to being the guy who loves some people from the core of his heart; from being a guy who wants to change himslef to being the guy who thinks that he is best the way he is; from being a guy who loves life to being a guy who finds life pointless and from being the guy who always starts a blogpost with a certain intention to being a guy who ends up saying nothing at all.

I keep discovering and rediscovering myself. Life is short, and I learn from the river. The river

never stops for anyone, and so won't I.

Thanks for the time, ciao.